MY Daily Life! Such as it is...

five years ago has become a very bad decision on my part. I don't regret moving back into my parents' home to help them when they needed it after my dad got laid off and my sister got sick. What I do regret is not packing up and leaving when it became obvious that living here was draining the peace and happiness from my life. Of course, I can't be precisely sure when that started happening, I just know it has. I feel trapped here, all the time. No where to go, no money to go anywhere with and nothing beyond this house, the kids and my parents. I rarely see my husband b/c he works non-stop trying to make his business successful and to make enough money to appease my parents and still keep ourselves afloat.
For a person that stays home with her kids all the time, I feel like I am always stressed out and unhappy. My poor husband probably thinks I hate his guts, but I'm never happy anymore not with him, barely with my kids. But the things in my life that used to make me happiest are non-existent. I have no home of my own, no car of my own, no money of my own, I don't even have a room for just my husband and I anymore. I feel like I've completely lost myself, my identity. I'm just Scott's wife, Sean and Carrie's mother, David and Virginia's daughter, hell I'm surprised I can remember my full name anymore. My days are nothing but whining children wanting food, comfort or attention, sleepless nights with sick or upset kids, fights with my family or husband over money, bills or some other trival thing. I rarely leave this house anymore, except for the occasional short trip somewhere on an occasional Sunday or take a child to school or the doctor. The farthest I go is to walk my son to or home from school or the local playground. I never have any money to take myself out or my kids anywhere special. I don't even have use of a decent car b/c my parents are using the one that rightfully belongs to Scott and I. (And I COMPLETELY refuse to use that piece of shit car with the year old expired inspection sticker and rusted front hood, Scott insists on keeping in the driveway) Even now I have a whining, fussy child just waking from her nap, seeking my attention while I try to finish this journal entry. I don't miss working, I truely was sick of being someone's secretary. I have other goals and ambitions I want to achieve before I become to old to work. And I can't complain around here b/c all I hear from parents is, "well welcome to parenthood or that's the sacrifice you make to be a mother." BULLSHIT! This is the fucking 21st century! That might have been true in the 1950's, 1960's and even maybe the 1970's, but it shouldn't be the case anymore! There are plenty of stay at home mothers who have lives outside of their homes, friends, hobbies, etc. Why do I have to be different? Simply b/c I made a decision to help my family out when they needed it. Suddenly helping my family has become a punishment that I receive over and over again and I don't know how to stop it. How the hell did my life end up so out of my control??

This was hysterical. I had to post it!

I don't even remember what I posted about last and I'm too lazy to check.
Can I just say being poor REALLY SUCKS ASS?!? I'm looking at the small pile of Christmas presents we've managed to buy the kids and it gets me so depressed. Especially since Scott and I haven't bought anything for each other yet. We still have to pay for Sean's tuition, the car payment, and the storage unit so we can get our Christmas stuff out. To add to this, can I also say that alot of Scott's clients SUCK ASS?!? Scott is owed so much money that is sitting out there, but has yet to find it's way to his pocket!! I realize that the holidays are tight for most, but if you can't afford Christmas, why the hell are you hiring a lawn and home care guy??

I'm tempted to tell the bill collectors to shove it until after Christmas, but that would be irresponsible and immature. So to close this rant, I must say that maturity sucks ASS, too!

FIRSTLY: Dan Radcliffe is NOT a little boy anymore...
As a 30 year old mother I say he's TOO young to look like that and to be posing for pics and starring in a play like that. Cover him up and lock him in his room for 3 years!
And then the still alive 18 year old in me tells the 30 year old mother to shut the hell up and really wish she were about 10 years younger so she could w/out guilt stow away on a plane to go enjoy the scenery currently about in London, LOL! Sort of brings those smutty HP fanfics to life, doesn't it??!!
Although DH Scott is quick to point out that he could do with a little body building, but I digress. Personally, I knew a few 17 year old guys when I was that age and what they looked like under the clothes and Dan is doing pretty good so far...

And of course, the BIGGER HP news, we HAVE A RELEASE DATE!! JULY 21ST, and may the countdowns begin. Went today to pre-order the book at the local Barnes and Noble so GOD WILLING I can again attend the midnight release as I have for the past two books (and thoroughly enjoyed both!) Don't know if I'll be able to talk my friends into going again like we did for HBP release. Kim might go, I'm not sure about Dana and Bryan. Guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. Hell I don't know if Dana EVER finished HBP, that girl is the slowest reader I know!! If the kids cooperate, maybe Scott can comet this time, since he is an official HP fan now. A lot will depend on whether he can get the audiobook on the night release or not. Since he doesn't actually read much, but he loves the audiobooks!

And of course, today they released and confirmed that JK has finished the book and she finished it at the Balmoral Hotel in Edinburgh Scotland. Even signed a statue to mark the occasion, check out a HP site to see the signature.

Anyway...that's my HP ramblings for now. No other major happenings going on. What can I say, I'm a mom of 2 kids that stays home most of the time. NO real life to discuss...Later!

And there was!! Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays and Happy New Year from JK Rowling. Doesn't sound like there is too much to be happy about for Harry and the gang in Book Seven, does there?! There was no happiness in Mudville...anyway different story.

I'm surprised the HP fandom and the Internet didn't explode today with the release of the title of Book Seven, I admit I was on more than usual today. We Crazed HP fans are desperately soaking up any little tidbits we can with the release of the title. We're like starving animals that have suddenly been handed a small appetizer to a much larger feast that has yet to be cooked. (Wow, I beat that analogy to death, didn't I?) Heaven help the fandoms and the internet when a release date is finally given, fans and/or computers all over the world may spontaneously combust!

I guess this was JK's way of hoping to placate her fans for a little while, as she (hopefully) finishes Harry Potter and the D.H. (for those that haven't read the title yet). Ahhh...but she should know by now, the little tidbits just make us thirsty for MORE!! Muwaahhhaahhaa!

Now we should be prepared for the new theories and rumors that will be sweeping the fandoms, boards and chat rooms devoted to HP, the internet will be hot tonite!!

Every time it looks like something good is going to happen. Something happens and shoots the good to hell in a handbasket, so it becomes incredibly short-lived!!
In 1990, we had to sell the house my grandparents' lived in since 1949 until their deaths' in 1989. Now if I had a choice or even a vote, I probably would have said then, don't sell. But since I was only 13, my voice didn't really count much back then. Then we discover in June that the man who bough it has also died and his family is auctioning off. Of course, we are depressed because we couldn't buy it at the time. Now it's October and surprise...Mom finds the house listed on a local real estate office's website and it's for sale!! Hey, possibility are arising. I talk Scott into looking at the house and he agress to look into us maybe buying. We talk to a mortgage broker and she gives us hopeful news that despite our past credit issues and Scott's recent start up business, we look good for a home loan. Plus we are on the verge of selling Scott's father's property to settle his final debts and have some money left over to use for a nice downpayment and investments. Until I get call from the agent we are dealing with at the office, the house has an offer made. DAMN, okay time to hop into action. So Friday afternoon (the 3rd), we go out and sign a contract to make an offer of $120K on the house. Which is below the asking price, but is double what the man paid for it 15 years ago, reasonable I think and so does the selling agent. It looked like Scott and I had made the top offer, so we leave happy and wait to hear something. But this evening our real estate agent calls and says another offer has come in and if we want the house we need to make a counter offer. Hint, hint, this offer is more than ours. ASSHOLES!! It took over a year to sell the house in 1990, what the hell is up now!! Who wants an almost 60 year old house so badly in a small town like Blackstone! For us it has sentimental value, but what gives with these other people, find another house dammit and leave ours alone!!!??? And not to mention, the man who wanted my father-in-law's house is being difficult and I don't know when that will get sold now, which could throw another fly in the ointment!!!
So now, we wait until the morning call our mortgage broker and see what we can do, if anything. I'm not even sure we can go much higher than what we've offered already.
I know God will provide what he wants for us, but I would be VERY upset and disappointed if we lost this house again. I don't think I want to move into another already built home again unless it's my grandparents, because I know it's well built and good quality. If this falls through, I guess we wait again and build our own like we originally planned.
But this still pisses me off royally. I'd love to find these people and threaten, beg, plead and cry until they backed off!!

Who has time to be on the internet?? My daughter doesn't believe in naps, today is the first day in a while she's taken a nap lasting longer than thirty minutes!!
There's been too much going on...Scott and I are busy cleaning up another mess created by his darling sister and niece. Unfortunately, this is going to involve lawyers to fix this mess, B*$*&ES both of them!

Anyway, thought I'd post answers to this Friday Five from hogwartsgrad board, good questions...

1. What is your favorite Ginny moment? When she and Harry kiss for the first time. (YES, I'm H/G shipper)

2. Choose one of the trio - what kind of job would you like to see them in after Hogwarts? Hermione to become an Unspeakable, she's too damn smart to be anything else and she's have to learn to keep her mouth shut more often ;o)

3. Do you think Percy Weasley will come around in Book 7 and redeem himself? Yep, by paying the ultimate price, his life for a family member, probably Molly or maybe Arthur.

4. Who do you think is the best candidate for DADA teacher in Book 7? Tough, either bring back Lupin, which I know won't happen or maybe Tonks.

5. Dumbledore tells Harry in Book 6 that the DADA teacher position is cursed, and no one lasts for more than a year. If he knew this to be true, why do you think Dumbledore finally allowed Snape to take on the position? To get rid of him, no actually, I think maybe DD thought since Snape was a former DE and sort of confidant of Volde, maybe he'd be immune to the curse. MISJUDGED that one, didn't he?

Okay, I'm done for the day, Carrie's radar kicked in, Mommy had ten minutes to relax, that's not allowed!!@

You don't realize how much you really depend on your internet until it's gone. For five days, everyone in this house was ready to climb the freakin' walls w/out our internet service working. To add to Mel's and Caity's rant, I really HATE Verizon and I'm still convinced we should file a complaint with FCC.
Unfortunately, Verizon is what they call a monopoly business since they are the only major phone company in the Mid-Atlantic, which apparently gives them the idea that they have carte blanche to do whatever the hell they feel they want with people's bills and service.
Sounds to me as if the people that can't cut it with places like the DMV or McDonald's wind up working at C.S. reps at Verizon...That and communication between departments is obviously NON-EXISTENT! Customer service is an oxymoron (no pun intended) with Verizon, they DO NOT know how to service their customers at all!
Okay, now that my rant is done, thank God the Net is back up. Talk about your withdrawal symptoms, five days with no internet is tantamount to insanity! Especially when the internet is one of your ONLY ways to escape to the outside world, when it's a HUNDRED flippin degrees outside and you have two small children that you don't want to take out in that kind of heat...
It all adds up to a VERY BAD five days. Glad it's over.

I would imagine that next year in London's West End, they will find out. With the news that Dan Radcliffe (of HP fame, if you didn't know) will be starring in a dramatic, adult play as a disturbed teen-ager that gets his jollies sticking sharp objects into the eyes of horses. Sounds like a winner ladies and gentlemen...Naturally the captivating part of this role for most HP fans of the straight female persuasion (and not so straight male) is that it MAY require Dan to ride a horse across the stage naked as a jaybird while simulating a sexual act...
Now, they haven't said what sexual act, but I'm sure many of us can draw our own conclusions since no other person is mentioned in that scene...
First of all, why would anyone want to bare all on stage for hundreds of strangers, even if you are certain it will change the direction of your acting career?
Second, before all fitting HP fans run screaming for tickets, don't be too sure that Dan WILL be naked. They've mentioned that in past versions, some have been performed w/out the nudity. My gut tells me that since Dan is still under contract w/WB, don't be surprised if there isn't some little clause that will prevent Dan from performing such a "revealing" part of a role. After all, how would it look to younger, impressionable fans to have HP strutting across a stage in nothing but a smile...They don't want to "wholesome" image of the hero ruined, least of all by a controversial play...
Don't get too excited, folks, nothing's coming off yet...

<td align="center"> Kristin --
[adjective]:

Fuzzy to the touch

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If they say so...

<td align="center"> Leigh --
[adjective]:

Sexually stunning

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Hot damn, I can live with that...

<td align="center"> Gladstone --
[noun]:

A person who laughs at anything (even this entry)

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That's probably true for me...

<td align="center"> Thomas --
[adjective]:

Extremely extreme!

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For some things yes...
And let's put it all together now...

<td align="center"> Kristin Leigh Gladstone Thomas --
[adjective]:

Smells like teen spirit

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Okay whatever.

Obviously this isn't a real preview of the movie HBP, but it is pretty awesome. Not bad for having put it together w/out any real acting from the actors. Too cool...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ETBwSDY9JJg

If you haven't picked up a phone and called your mother recently, do it. If you haven't dropped by and given your mom a hug, you really should. You have no idea what a mom gives up for her kids. Some things to remember...your mother in her life as a mom has given up hot meals; sleep; five minutes to sit down anywhere; reading that chapter in her new book b/c you wanted to play a game or read (insert book title) for the fiftieth time; five minutes to pee or shower in peace; new clothes b/c you needed them too (even if she really needed them); a comfortable bed to herself b/c you had that really bad dream again; the trip to the movies, mall or otherplace by herself b/c you came down with the flu and she stayed to take care of you; a romantic weekend with your dad to take you to the amusement park or other place of kids' fun; the radio station in the car b/c you HAD to listen to the new Top 40 songs even though she'd NEVER heard them before and probably never wanted to again!
This is just a small list of things Moms have done for centuries for their kids and will continue to do till the end of time. So remember that the next time you are irritated with your mom, remember what's she's probably done for you...
(And I'm not just saying this b/c I'm a mom now, I'm saying it, b/c as a mom I've realized exactly what it is to be a mom and how selfless you have to be as a mom, so keep that in mind if you consider yourself to be a selfish person, Motherhood may not be for you.)

I will be the first to say I love my family, yes, all of them. But sometimes I wish I could pack my bags and disappear for a few months where none of them know where I am...
After an exhausting trip to MD on Saturday, I'm hoping that the 9 hour long visit was enough to hold my grandparents until next year or at least Christmas...I realize they are getting up in years and are wanting to see their grandchildren and great-grandchildren, but LORD, three hours up in the car and three hours back with 2 children under the age of 4, one of which is less than four months old can be INCREDIBLY tiring. Especially when you are driving with a father who constantly observes every other driver on the road to be stupid and a mother who flinches and gasps at every lightning flash from the heavy storm raging over our heads... NEVER AGAIN! And my Great Aunt wants to know if we'll be attending the family reunion on August 12th. IS SHE OUTTA HER FUCKING MIND?!?! Only if you drug me and the kids, I never thought I'd say it, but thank God Scott has to work that weekend, I have a wonderful excuse to say no way in hell!! The worst part is the affect the trip has on the kids, their schedules are all outta whack and that's means little or NO sleep for mommy!
And for a small rant on my DH's family...what the hell have I ever done to my brother-in-law to deserve the constant barrage of dislike he seems to enjoy spewing to our mutual acquaintances behind my back. I have to hear from my DH's best friend and his SO, about how much Dave (Wilson) apparently dislikes me and feels that I'm basically no good for Scott. I could share the same opinion about him and his shrew of a wife, but I digress... Personally I do what I can to stay the hell away from the majority of Scott's family, simply b/c my life is busy and problematic enough w/out having to add their issues and hang-ups to the mix... In fact, if I never had to deal with Dave (Wilson) or his lovely wife, I would be thrilled...
As they say you can't pick your family, too bad, I have a couple family members on my and Scott side's I wouldn't mind throwing back into the gene pool, but again I digress...

You know my family can annoy the hell out of me sometimes, but they can also be pretty damn funny too. My two sisters who can also be annoying as hell sometimes (sorry guys, but I know the feeling is mutual about me), but they can be pretty hysterical when they want to be.
Both of them re-living their night at Pirates of the Caribbean opening night. My younger sis. Caity talking about the two fourty year old guys in the snack line ahead of her that hadn't obviously eaten in three years and Mel's enthuasism over the Transformer's preview, which was completely lost on Caity and I. And of course, Mel's declaration that she's a geek and needs to tattoo it across her forehead so everyone can know it.
Mel...no offense but anyone who knows you personally can tell that on their own, LOL!
We also had a good time remembering cartoons and kids' shows that were popular when they were younger. Mel's on a hunt for these old shows on DVD or Tape, Lord help us, just what she needs more videos, you already can't see her shelves and floor for the lot of books and videos she has collected. But I can't blame her, I like to find old TV shows that I watched as a child, too. Brings back good memories. I guess everyone loves to relive our childhood, even if it wasn't that long ago...

I've never done this before, new to LJ, saw my sisters journals and decided to give it a whirl.
As a mom of 2 under age 5, I'm not sure how much time I can devote to posting, I guess I'll do it when I can. But this is pretty cool, lovin' playing with the icons and avatars. I'm not new to the Internet, but I am fairly new at the different things you can do on the net!
I'm a big Harry Potter, Star Wars and General Hospital fan, yes I'm a geek in some ways, but hey aren't we all a little bit?! Doesn't everyone have their secret passion for something that could be considered... geeky?! I'm just not secretive about my passions I guess. Hey, I'm a 30 year old wife and mom who has a deep passion for HP, GH and Star Wars, so shoot me, I guess I'm way past the stage of worrying about what other people think of me. Everybody has got to have a hobby I suppose or at least something that takes you out of reality. 'Cause let's face it folks, reality can really suck a lot of the time...